Here I am driving by in the depths of hell and I all I can hear is a biting sensation of pain. I look around and I hear the universe herself cry out to me in the lyrics of the song I am listening to. I start to shudder with the memories flooding my mind, reminding me of the dream I had just earlier that night. My mind is running all over inside the car that my mind zones out and listens to the lyrics hitting me like a train "This is the end for us, I'm no longer going to be here for you" and the force that I feel when I realise that those lyrics are making me start to feel scared for the loss of the one I love.

My car starts to swerve over the raining road and my tires start to slide and all I can think of is "I haven’t shown them how much I love them yet!" and tears start to appear in my eyes. I’m glad for the company within the car that I have sunglasses on to hide the terrible appearance of the sadness leaking from my body.

I gain control of my thoughts. The lyrics stop hitting me so hard and I regain control of my composure and car. Tears now flooding freely as a overflowing dam as again I’m faced with hell from the trenching rains and flooded road. I slip again into a trance and the lyrics start to smash away at me like a jackhammer. I cant compose myself, I cant talk. My throat tightens and my stomach lurches. I want to throw up, I want to die. I cant bear to feel this way, knowing that in an instant I'm about to crash and leave the one I love in the arms of no one.

Losing hope and feeling like the world is about to explode the darkness of death upon my eyes and forever leave me there to feel nothing no longer, I pull off the road and I break down in tears, wailing like the child that’s lose their mother and has nothing left to live for. My tears are flowing, my body is failing and the company in the car stares in amazement and disbelief. I've just broken my heart in two and I sit there accepting that I'm not going to come home.

I have accepted death and it pains my heart, not for the fact I'll no longer be there to survive for myself. It's because I'll never be able to show just how much that the love I've searched all my life for just how special, amazing, gorgeous and intoxicating they are to me. I can't describe how I felt in words but I know the feeling of being happy and it's something that I don’t get often enough to understand.

I understand what Happiness is now. I understand what Happiness is now, it's a shame it’s to late as I feel the darkness enclose itself over my eyes and then I'm gone.